Sweet little Miles

Who says boys can't be deep and sensitive? Not me! Tonight while getting Miles to bed we were petting Ebony(the new kitty)and listening to her purr. Miles started talking about Ty our only boy cat we've had and who went missing about a year ago. Once Miles starts talking about Ty (who he loved completely)he gets crying. Tonight was no different. The tears started coming and really big tears. He also was doing that whole take in a deep breath and hold it for a second and then let it out and cry some more. It was making me so sad. He said that when we had Ty it made our home even, three boys and three girls(even though we also had a girl cat but I was not about to get technical with him). He was so sad that our family isn't even anymore. He asked me if I thought Ty was in Heaven, I said "of course he is." Then he asked me if I thought Ty might come back in another kitty's body? I guess my kid believes in reincarnation? Who knew? We had a talk about how Ebony is our new kitty and that we love her and she loves Miles. I told him that one day he would see Ty again but that for now Ty is very happy and will be just fine. Then (and this broke my heart) he asked what would happen if Mark, Kiah, Sofi and I died, would he and Ebony be alone? I don't know what got into his little mind to make him think about such deep and sad things? He's 5 for heaven's sake, he shouldn't worry about stuff like that. He's such a sweet little boy. He's a very tender and sensitive boy, I hope he keeps some of that when he grows up. Not so much that his feelings get hurt too much, but just enough to keep him kind and caring. I had conversations with my girls like this when they were Miles age, but I didn't think I would have them with Miles for some reason. It was wrong of me to assume that little boys aren't sensitive like that. I have been proved wrong over and over again with Miles. I didn't know what a boy would be like but I think I set certain expectations and assumed. I'm glad I've been proved wrong, it's opened my eyes to a whole new world. I love it.

It's been an off week!

I've been having a really off week. For many reasons. Some I'd rather not go into. What I will tell you about though is my Amazon fresh.com ordering and the mistakes I've made. We like to order our food from Amazon fresh and have it delivered early in the morning around 6am and we don't have to be up to sign anything when they drop it off.The items that need to be kept cold are kept with ice bags and so they can stay outside for a while before we even get to them. I also like Amazon fresh because anything over 30$ is free delivery and we always order over 30$. Because of some other things that went on this week that kind of threw me off, when I ordered my items I wasn't exactly thinking correctly. First was when I thought I ordered two boxes of Cinnamon toast crunch cereal and got a big box of 24 boxes. We do love Cinnamon toast crunch but still it's going to take us a while to eat it all. Second was when I ordered two 6 packs of coke(which I should be ordering diet not regular) and got 4, 6 packs instead. I do not need that much coke. Like I said I should be drinking diet coke instead. Hopefully next time I order my brain is working a bit better. I'm just grateful for websites like amazon fresh so that I don't have to shop all the time. It's one of my pet peeves. Plus I discovered one of my new favorite popsicles on amazon fresh and the kids love it as well. You should try it out. It's yummy.
P.S. You have to like the Acai fruit. It's not overly strong in this bar like it is in other products so you don't have to totally love it. Like my husband doesn't totally love it, but loves this bar. I have to hide the box in the freezer from my 5 year old son because he will eat it all gone, but he is a really good eater. Not your typical 5 year old. Try it though and let me know what you think.

3 songs being played over and over

I get in moods where I play a few songs over and over again. Then I get tired of those and move on, but for a period I'm addicted to those songs. I thought I would share the 3 that I can't seem to get enough of right now.

My three right now are:
1. Lost- Coldplay



2. Empty- Ray Lamontange



3. Gold digger-Kanye West (I like to dance a bit in the kitchen, what can I say?)


What are you listening to over and over again right now? Is there a song that you are embarrassed to share, like my Gold Digger song? C'mon, don't be shy!

Quotes of all quotes

I saw this quote on someone else's blog and loved it instantly. I've been thinking lately about what I want to write and have felt a bit blah about writing on my blog. This quote has me going though. It's by Anais Nin.

"We write to taste life twice, once in the moment and in retrospection"

I think that is so beautiful. We do write, or I at least write things down to experience it again, or I guess in hopes that my posterity and their posterity can experience it once. Maybe a little insight to who I am and who I was. I love writing funny things, like the time I called a number in Provo, Utah hoping to find a meditation center (I needed some peace in my life at the time and was having a hard time finding it). I asked the woman on the other end of the line if they taught meditation there? She hesitated and said "No, we are a mediation center." I felt a bit dumb. I'd gone to the M's in the yellow pages(in a phone book, we used those back then) and had read it wrong. The funniest part was how annoyed the woman was. I laughed, she hung up. I also like to write down things that aren't always uplifting and happy, but tell about what's going on at that time in my life and feel it needs to be told. Like when Mark's Grandma passed away last year and it was very hard to watch Mark deal with the loss. She was a great woman. She loved basketball and would always talk to us about the Jazz when we lived in Utah and followed them. I love to write about my kids because they are the loves of my life, and Mark. They keep me young but then at times make me feel so old. Like with Kiah turning 17 in April then having a 9 year old that has one more year after this year and then she goes into Middle school. Then there is Miles who hasn't even started elementary school yet. They love me unconditionally, well so far they do ;) I love writing in my Journal and my blog. I need to remember that there doesn't always have to be something profound or totally amazing in order to write. It's just fun.

Hubby did good!

We love to make shakes and smoothies(one child in particular-Sofi). We were saddened the day the blender died. Shortly after that Mark and Sofi were visiting our friends the Woodhouse's and she had a mixer that Sofi HAD to run home to tell me about. It's the Elite Cuisine Mixer.
Sofi thought it was so cool because it comes with :
-Four tall cups
- Four spill-proof lids
- Four foam-grips
- One tall blending cup
- One small grinder cup
- Two stainless steel blades
- One main motor base
You can attach a tall cup to the base(upside down) and blend your drink, oh and it has the spill proof lid. When done take your drink off and either use a straw with it or take the lid off. It can blend and mix drinks, chop nuts, grate cheese and I'm sure a plethora of other amazing things. I hinted to Mark that it would be a nice gift to get for Christmas. He heard my hint and I got the Elite mixer for Christmas. The only bad part was that so many things were coming in the mail before Christmas (since we do most of our shopping online, we can't stand the stores during the holidays) that I opened the box with my gift in it, thinking it was one of my boxes. Oh well, we still wrapped it and put it under the tree. It's very cool though. I've lost count of how many smoothies Sofia has made. She is quite the little cooker and maker of yummy things. I don't want to plug products on here but if your blender gives out on you one day, give this one a try. Very, very cool.